AFTER ONE PAIN...COME OTHER PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know why I feel BAD MOOD now......I feel sad after I Know the truth of him...He never LOVE me as I love him..even its past between me and him but I still loving him like before until now.What should I do to 4get him...I give my everything to him....my whole heart but why he treat me like this???Am I a doll for guy playing or is one of my test before I found my true LOVE....But I can't bear it anymore..I can't stand for or bear paining and been hurting anymore..
What I want is only a happiness for my whole life..PLEASE GUY,DON'T HURT ME AGAIN..MY HEAT ALREADY PAINING SO MUCH..IT'S BE WOUND ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!CAN U PLEASE JUST GIVE ME A HAPPY LIFE STORY....DO U KNOW HOW HURT I AM WHEN U HURTING ME????IF U WANT HURT ME MORE THAN THIS,PLEASE DON'T COME NEAR ME..EVEN I LOVE U,PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!DON'T COME.......THIS HEART STILL NOT YET RECOVER FROM THE PAST HURT.....GO AWAY FROM ME IF U WILL DO IT TO ME......IF U REALLY LOVE ME,JUST PLEASE HELP ME TO RECOVER FROM THIS PAIN........

^^WeSt..Plz go away from my life!!!!!!! Guy,PLZ DUN HURT ME AGAIN!!!!!!

He Ask Me To Not Wasting My Time ON HIM!!!!!

I Will never 4get it what he told me thats days(20/08/2009)..e ask me to not wasting my time on him anymore..If this he want me to do,I WIll...coz now i can 4get my LOVE to him.....Even its not 1oo % yet...but i believe thats somedays i will 4get it 100 %...Its only need a time to 4get tats LOVE...TQ to him coz never find me again....coz this teach me how to 4get thats LOVE!!!!What I only can HOPE IS HE CAN FOUND HIS TRUE LOVE...I'm not sure if I can 4get all memory wif him....I knw its har but I should 4get it.....


"IF THAT DAY I DIDN' MEET U,
I WILL NOT CRAZY ABOUT U,
IF THAT DAY I DIDN'T FALL IN LOVE WITH U,
I WILL NOT CONFUSES,
IF THAT DAY U DIDN'T LEAVING ME,
I WILL NOT BE HURT,
IF ONE DAY WE MEET AGAIN,
ARE THERE STILL OUR LOVE????
IF WE NEED TO FORGET IT,
WILL U FORGET IT DEEPLY??
IF WE MEET NEW PERSON,
I WILL LOVE HIM MORE THAN U...
I HOPE U WILL SO...."

~TQ WEST~

^^Where is My FreeDom???I want A FreeDom As a Teenager^^

ermmm.....how to write it down ler???I feel like I'm nomore freedom..all wat i want to do is can't do.....Feel like in the jail oooo.....Locking in one DARK ROOOM......can't do anything..just do wat they ask to do...it's my life..so bored,i can't even find my ambition and true love....actually wat i need to in this LIFE???hard to say it...Sometimes I need a person to talk with...about wat i feel and wat I wan to do......Everytime I feel I'm like A doll..use to play especially in the LOVE MATTER!!!!wAT I wan is a freedom as a teenagers...do wat they should do at this age,but i never feel it...I NEVER FELL THE TEENAGER..I FEEL LIKE I'M AN ADULT WHO WAIT TO MARRY.....I DUN WAN LIKE THATS...i only want live as a common teenager like other girls or my friends do...CAN'T I HAVE THATS FREEDOM???

I HOPE I HAVE A fairly/SOMEONE to help me get out from this....I NEED A FREEDOM TO FLY AWAY like a BIRD....I hv been like tis almost my whole life!!!!!Until now,I still can't find my freedom OOOOOO.....

^^MissINg WesT so Much....But Need 4get him^^

Hermmmm.....it'a been a month i didn't meet him but all about hjim and me never run from my memories.....I miss him more than he know....He hv told me tats he oso miss me but should i trust him????I think mayB.....but for me,he never know wat LOVE is.....coz inside his heart no LOVE....i HATE MY SELF WHEN I fall in love with him......And I hate him but LOVE HIm so muz...he has change my mind,my heart.....He make me crazy whole days.....I ask myslelf why I still remembering him after i make decision to be his friend(Stupid me and stupid decision).....I never knw his heart.....why he not dare to meet my brother?????many excuses he give me....WATEVER............Wat i can hope is...He found his TRUE LOVE so he will not be lonely again.....

=I MISS HIM SO MUCH BUT I SHOULD 4GET HIM=

=TryiNg harder To 4get him=

Jia you,Gambate..... I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!

= SuFFeR!Ng =

Heh.......Feel Suffer ooo
Last nite I hard to sleep ooo but its not my first time dy....many time dy.....I dun know why it's always like tis....My back so pain and make me can't sleep and also make me hard to breath...
mayB coz of tired or wat????Dun knw lal..but it's really make me suffer.....everymonth will feel like this oo....But It's ok lal......

Huh....Lately so TIRED!!!!

Lately i need take care my nephew ooo.....

feel tired of it.......everydays do the same thing......but's ok seems they are cute oooo....hehehhe

My nephew......cute but supper naughty..

hehehe.....It teach me how to be a mother...hehehehehe